Catch Me Later.

Already a bad evening, compounded with the Liverpool lose and a restless body, I just had to pen it down:


There is this time when we feel that there is so much space to be filled, yet, the only person who can fill this space has refused to fill it.

I will never understand how someone who has absolutely no commitments, has a reasonable amount of time in the country and has time for activities like chatting with friends on the net and having endless lunches and dinners with other friends be absolutely so busy. I am simply amazed.

Maybe I’m overlooking something here. Friends - tons of them, every single one a close friend. So, if a list was to be made, I guess I’d be just another one to catch up with later.
Yes, catch up with me when you are done with the rest. All you really have to do is just give a call, and you could do some catching up.

I don’t know if you ever realized that there is a need for couples to have their own time. Not time with each other’s friends. It’s ok to know them, but we hardly even got to know each other better!!!
Maybe I do know you better now. You want your friends to be my friends and my friends to be your friends. Is that it?? Is that why u want me around you with them?? It doesn’t work that way for me... You have to know me 1st.

It’s fu*king clear you’ve got other priorities ahead of me. It’s simple actually, all the things you said about how you feel maybe true, but you definitely dunno what you are doing to me. Go see your grandma please - at least I know once you have seen her, there would be at least one more day free for me to be with you.

I’ve never seen a person in love and not making time to see the loved one. And that gives me the right to actually question what you declare. I dunno how true you are now, what exactly you want, or what isit you lack in your life. Maybe a Dog would do you better. At least it’s at home when u want it to.

All those things about not being sure, about being free next time… blah blah blah…ALL RUBBISH!!!
Go and catch up with the world. You can always catch up with me later.

Rated 21. (Children, please avoid reading this entry)

note: This entry is purely for the purpose of steam discharge. Anything said of which is offensive to anyone is regretful, and I seek your understanding and forgiveness.


KNNBCCB!!!!!! That F#@*ing linesman should just burn in hell. Middlesboro can go and burn in hell together with zenden and riggot and the rest of this team... Shit heads!!!!

The whole game was Fu*King fixed!!!!! I hope all these syndicates will just have their souls torn into shreds and their money put before their tortured souls for thier viewing pleasure. BASTARDS!!! ALL Fu*kers!!!!!!CB!!!!!

To think my day today already so bad. This made it worst!!!! SHIT!!! KNNBCCB!!!!!!

Do as you please.

Whatever the time,
Wherever the place,
Whoever that person,
Whenever you want…
Just Call if you want to.
Just Sing if you have to.
Just go if you must.
Just do so if you got to.
Just handle your chores.
Just meet your friends.
Just live your life.
If it ill be, it will be.
It’s your choice.
Do as you please.

Your Inconsistancies & Priority, I am not.

Time you said there was for me,
Yet each time you are not free.
Friends you said are important to you,
yet for me, am I not a friend too?

Choice, you said you had made,
yet to me, the choice is still laid...

Goodnight a kiss not hard to give,
yet for you, its a burden, a myth.
How can you say you love me so?
When even people cannot know?

How could you say you want me each day?
Only to find out each time you are away.
I am hurt so you should know,
you may care but only apparently so.

In your life, where do I fit?
Am I just a horse to sit?

One tear flowed,
I see your face,
Standing alone, this night, this place,
My heart's a joy, yet confused by your trace.


- Marcus Chow

Is it too much?

You know how sometimes things just feels amissed? Like something's wrong but you just don't know what's the apparent reason?

With reference to a relationship, the torrent of emotions used in defining this missing property is utterly sobering and sometimes it becomes vividly demising. I don't think it's healthy to let such unknown elements get in the way, but then again, its a sixth sense, a protection mechanism that activates itself. It is after all, also an acquired skill.

I guess many things are beyond my logic. And it doesn’t necessarily require my understanding. But indefinitely, it bothers me - how unfortunate. When certain discussions take place, and when spoken individually, it makes sense. Throw it out with other words that were said previously and add the actions that took place. It doesn’t sum up. Balancing this set of accounts now appears more difficult than first imagined.

Am I thinking too much??

In all matters of the heart, there is always a price. But its worth will have to be judged by the individuals who entangle themselves in its web. He and she must 1st be able to open their hearts to one another. And opening of the heart is risky - a danger of having made the wrong choice and the lingering possibility of regret. But as simple as it sounds, without it, it would just be a mere meeting of personalities.

A definition of ‘Opening the Heart’ is warranted, but I would be unable to give a full example from a professional perspective. However, in my own opinion, it would mean allowing the souls to be intertwined with one another, to allow each other into our very own little worlds and to cast actions that speak louder than the words.

Is it too much??

MAN and SHE.

Man and She.

Wise is he who comes to stop,
The blaze to glory where all is rot.
Must he wills the thought of she,
And hands her what a she so needs.
Know must she a way to light,
For all there is,
There is a right,
A right to find the bond she seeks,
A bond so strong it sweeps her feet.

-Marcus Chow

The Pursue of Education.

I had just realized my 1st entry for October, was seemingly my last for that month. Now I’m wondering, where did I disappeared to? It’s like an alien abduction just took place last month and I had no recollection whatsoever. Amnesia? Brain freeze? Must be something I ate.

Well, maybe it was a disease, the virus makes the hand feel like 30 times its own weight. Toolazytomoveogitis. It affects me occasionally. Liar! Ok, all the time. But the situation IS improving. Why do I procrastinate exercising?! Whichever divine genius who can come out with a drug to make people exercise will be the undisputed Bill Gates of the medical world!! (I want just 10% of the proceeds, whoever you are, remember you got your inspiration from here!!)

Yes, nothing’s gonna be the same from next week onwards. School’s gonna start and lots of work is gonna come pouring in. For someone who is so anti the local educational system here, I’ve allowed myself to delve deeper into its well - not very persevering I would say. And it doesn’t help when you know in advance if you were to be cast back in time to ancient China, you’d probably be more of a farmer than a scholar. Doesn’t bid well, does it?

Today’s society embraces the collective opinion of the masses, which creates pressure for ourselves, and in turn the pressure becomes THE opinion, and so the cycle continues.

As timely as it sounds, educational businesses are sprouting out almost every where, universities capitalizing on the international markets, offering courses for all kinds of degrees from Universities of diverse variations. This makes good business sense, as people, us, are being put in the cycle of collective pressure and it helps that even study loans are available.

Education IS being purchased. An investment tool for the recipients, and a viable business for all those involved. Well, if the current trend continues, a PhD will be the minimum requirement for our children to have a place in society. Maybe the government should make do without the ‘A’ Levels and just have a foundation year for the ‘O’ Level grads to go strait into a degree course.

This brings us to another interesting issue. The issue of career paths. Some people are just lucky they figured what they want to do by the age of 14, some by 16, some by 18 and some not even when they are 30. If you noticed, 14 is when they have to make their 1st career move, Science, arts or commerce stream? 16 is where they choose to further the streams they take, bringing it to the ‘A’ Levels or the Polytechnics. 18 is where the ‘A’ level students choose which degree to pursue.

Specializations already starts at an age where teenagers are still discovering themselves. How would they know what their potential is for the future???

Since I’m at it, it makes no sense for secondary school students to do combined science. You are actually studying 2 subjects for 1 grade. Its absurd. And a child maybe good in physics and weak in chemistry, how can he score a good grade like this?

And what if the child wants to be a pilot for SIA in the future? How would he know, at 14, that the application for being an SIA pilot actually requires him to have taken PURE physics!!!?

I haven’t thought of a better way to improve the system, but I believe a generalized education in the secondary schools as well as the JCs and pre-Us would be more appropriate. Keeping options open when young is important, as that will provide them more time, flexibility and ability to help decide on a more appropriate tertiary education.

I could go on and on with this. But let’s just say that studying now for me isn’t just about getting the degree for the sake of it, like so many do. Its more of getting the degree for a shot at another career opportunity in something I would have had greater passion for. Of which , if without, would be near impossible to pursue. (We'll talk about entrepreneurship another time.)

How could this have happened!!??!

Just came back from Holland V to cool down from an audacious result. Wanted an alcoholic beverage, but they dun serve alcohol after 12. Too bad. Settled on tea and some chicken wings with Boon instead.

Today was a perfectly good day. Nice weather, cooling and not too wet. Nice food, can't complain when mum cooks. Nice comfy sofa...And then, by 1am, I am totally disgusted and the rest of the week is thrown into disarray.

A team i so dearly supported almost all my life, in a moment of lapsed concentration, allowed a simple infiltration of their defensive wall. Tapped in by the discarded talent, Darren Anderton. Not much is to be said about this player though. His contribution, other than this goal, is minimal to the Brimingham team.

Liverpool should have buried the game by half time, Luis Garcia missing a glorious chance after being let through to go one on one with the keeper, blasting the ball into the stands when a simple tap was of a more viable option.

Dietmar Hamman could have at least given my beloved reds the lead in the 2nd half. However, after a brilliant dummy by Garcia, the ball having fell to hamman and also with the keeper to beat, blasted straight at the keeper. When will this nightmare of missing one on one situations end for liverpool?

Sadly though, they had to concede a soft goal by any standards. Its an unacceptable result looking at the way play was dominated by the reds, leaving brimingham with only that one try on goal from a quickly taken corner.

Optimistically, there is one side of this liverpool team which is worth watching. They are now able to dominate play - something which would be unimaginable from the past 3 seasons under Houllier.

I am pretty sure Benitez knows where it went wrong, and considering he had fielded a large bulk of players left behind from Houllier's reign, I would say their progress so far has been pretty impressive. The results however, will have to improve. Rafalution in progress.