Yes, That's how it will be.

This is the 1st post of October, but definitely not the 1st attempt to post something this month.

The last few times (6 if I should recall) the computer hung on me midway thru my blogging.
In recurring states of annoyance, I gave up updating for a wile.

How inspirations and ideas are dampened by a simple display of arrogance by this dumb machine of mine. Pity, pity.

The truth of the matter is in fact, the lack of discipline to actually do what I need to do. Pick myself up, like always, and start writing again. Whatever the reasons I did not fulfill my agenda, I am not making up excuses for my lack of action. Something must change. So, God Help.

Finally my mind is made up after much thorough assessment. This was supposed to be announced days and days ago, but, well, the computer hanging and my lack of perseverance wasn’t exactly helping.

I have decided to embark on a new journey, to pursue an old passion with a new purpose.
Going back to school fulltime for someone at my age wouldn’t exactly be easy or justified. New responsibilities and boundaries have to be set.

How many times have we delve into a recession of responsibilities and red tapes, which had so often trapped our ambitions and dreams. How long does it take for someone to discover his/her own talents and how long will it take for the talent to be appreciated and understood? I work on the philosophy - It’s never too late. And thus, my decision.

To justify the cause, I have weighted out working fulltime and studying part-time against studying full time and working part-time. Let’s just say there is a time line I try to put myself on and studying full time will cut me down by a year. And, of course, it would provide better focus for my ever wondering mind.

If living life is about being human and doing what we can to our very best, I certainly would agree that the words by the late columnist/author, Erma Bombeck, said it best:


When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything that you gave me."
- Erma Bombeck


Yes, that’s how it will be.